First, I want to say 'Thank You' to all who have helped and prayed for us!!! I cannot thank you all enough for helping us get through this rough time. We aren't out of the woods yet though, but we are starting to see the Lord's hand in this situation we are finding ourselves.
As you know, a few weeks ago a local exorcist told me that I need to trust the Lord more, especially with our finances (and employment) and just let go. As of now, we have officially let go and are now self-employed (or more accurately, God-employed). Everything the Lord was doing this month with us appeared to be pointing to Him wanting us to let go of control of our lives into His hands and trust Him to provide for us, whether it be through freelance jobs or charity through His people. (For anyone interested, here's a link to my new freelance website: http://5thstudios.com/ )
I am sharing this with you all because many of our readers have reached out to me about how they are in simular situations, being asked to trust the Lord more than ever before and let go. It is VERY scary to let go when we don't know how we are going to make ends meet. And I am the first to say "I don't know how to do this...", but if our experience helps to lift anyone else going through this, then I'm glad I shared our situation with you all. And who knows, with many of the latest messages pointing to major changes coming to our world from war to the Illumination, He may be simply moving us into positions that will be to our benifit when the time comes.
Please continue to pray for us. We have no idea what the future holds for us nor how we are gonna make ends meet, but I am excited to start this new adventure with the Lord.
May God bless you all. And we continue to lift you all up at mass that He may bless and guide you all. Your Brother in Christ,
Well, I feel it's time to give you all an update. At the request of a friend I reached out and contacted a local exorcist in my region to ask for his help and guidance. He is in his mid 90's and was very patient with me... for about 5 minutes. As I was explaining my issues with him including things breaking and financial burdens and such, he abruptly stopped me and said "Jim... let me tell you something.... your full of sh*t...". Yes, my face dropped, I couldn't believe that an exorcist of his age would say that. He continued to tell me that the problems I'm describing to him are just symptoms of the problem, but not the problem itself. He then began to tell me that my real problem was that I was trying to be self-relient because I didn't trust God to take care of my life and my finances. It was like he was reading me like a book. Although every time we ran out of money, at that very moment, we usually would get a donation that would get us past the hurtle we were encountering, and yet I wanted to be financially stablle so that I wouldn't have to rely on others (and in return, God). So he told me to start surrendering myself to the Lord's providence and trust him with my finances. Little did I know that only 2 days later I would be put to the test with those words.
Today I returned to work after some expensive repairs. But by mid-day I was informed that I was being let go. Fortunately they told me that it wasn't because of my car problems, but because the company has gone broke and they were being forced to cut out my entire department in an effor to salvage the remainder of the company. So now we have a lot of re-organizing to do in our lives including reducing any unneeded expenses and preparing for an uncertain future. Strangely though, even though I feel down a little, I was not a mess. I continue to remind myself of what the exorcist told me, that the Lord wants to bless my family and I, but my lack of trust keeps getting in the way becuase I always want to fix things myself.
I guess it's easy to say "Yes Lord, I trust you..." but it's a whole different story when everything is taken from you and you still need to say "Yes Lord, I trust you..." So the next few weeks are gonna be a little scary and uncertain, but I'm gonna trust in the Lord that He'll get us through this. Please pray for us that everything will work out for the better and that I'll be able to pass this new test and Trust in Him. Thank you all for your help as well, it is (and will be) greatly needed.
God bless. Your Brother in Christ,
First, I want to say thank you to the few who have helped us. It helps us soooo very much, often coming at the very moment when all seems lost. I'll never understand why the Lord chooses to help us in this way, but He does.
Unfortunately, after we last said thank you to all for your prayers and that things had stopped breaking, it appeared that I had spoken to soon. We are under a new wave of spiritual attacks and I just don't know what to do anymore. If anyone is blessed with the gift if discernment I would love to hear from you sometime because I feel I am too close to the battlefield to see the bigger picture.
A spirit of oppression continues to linger over our home continuously reaking havoc on us, our property, and our finances and I am at a loss as to what I should do anymore. As you all know, I utterly hate asking for help, and so it seems that is the #1 attack constantly being yealded on us, to put me in a position of having to ask and depend on others with what I feel I should be able to take care of myself. The majority of my extended family do not believe in Jesus and yet are very successful in life. I on the other hand am the only believer and thus am constantly struggling just to make ends meet, which unfortunately makes me look like the fool to the rest of my family and adds just another layer of oppression on top of all the other struggles we face. And even last night, on the eve of Divine Mercy Sunday, I had my joy stolen from me by having my car break down forcing me to get it towed at 1 in the morning. Fortunately I was able to get my family to church today to finish the requirements for the Divine Mercy novena, but it was a bitter-sweat joy that was hard to feel thankful in.
I'm sorry if I'm babbling... I'm just growing weary of asking for help and never realized how many attacks I would have to endure just to keep this site up and running. Your prayers and financial help are so desperately needed, especially because it appears I'll be stuck home until I get paid again before I can afford to fix my car and return to work. Please pray for us.
God bless. Your Brother in Christ,