Me: Dear God, I love you, but I’m scared. Things are getting worse, and I don’t know how to navigate. You take over. I’m tired.
Lord, are there any words you’d like me to write?
Please forgive me my sins. Thank you for confession last week. Thank you for this time together. Lord, please protect my brother; protect my family.
Lord, are there any words?
Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, be still tonight. You run to and fro. You are not still. Be still tonight. Be at peace.
Me: Lord, thank you.
Lord God Almighty Father: The devil takes so much. Do not let him steal the peace I give you. Silly child, you act as if nothing can be taken from you.
Me: Dear Lord, I am tired and scared. Please help erase my fears and bring me rest in Your Sacred Heart and Mary’s. Amen.
Are there any words?
Lord God Almighty Father: Dear child, remember fear is not of Me. Rest now. Today is a day of rest. (Sunday)
Me: Lord, I thank you for all you have given me. Thank you for my family, for our health. Thank you for this quiet time together. It is nice not to run around so. Sorry for my anger and impatience. Help me please to do better.
Lord God Almighty Father: Child, you just now are realizing you couldn’t hear Me because you were so tired from the confusion of this world. How can you hear Me if you are asleep? It is alright to rest. It is alright to rest. But rest within Me (My Heart). How silly, but you don’t even know you cannot rest within the world (said lovingly). The world is full of trickery. You only calm down when in prayer, see, because then your mind is elevated above this earth, so there you find rest and rejuvenation. This is why you must be in constant prayer. Your body cannot join the Heavens yet. But your mind, your imagination, can. What do you picture, young one? What do you see?
Me: Lord, I see my dream from last night: the evil spirit attacking the priest. But that’s not me thinking of Heaven! I am not doing this right.
Lord God Almighty Father: But what did you do, little one? In your dream?
Me: I prayed the Hail Mary. It was scary. I was scared. It’s instinct to pray the Hail Mary when I’m scared like that.
Lord God Almighty Father: You call out to your Mother when you’re scared or in this case scared for the well being of another?
Me: Yes. I guess I do.
Lord God Almighty Father: So, even when faced with darkness, you know the light of the Face of Mary will help.
Me: But I didn’t see Mary or Her Face.
Lord God Almighty Father: But you believe She heard you?
Me: Yes. But it was a dream. If I call out in a dream, is that like calling out in prayer?
Me: Lord, a voice is trying to distract me now. Help.
I then pray:
St. Michael prayer…
Guardian Angel prayer…
Lord God Almighty Father: Rest now in Me. The devil will only do so much as I allow. I allowed you to see that last night. Sometimes you need to remember the power of the spiritual and seeing an evil spirit is a jolt (awakening). But remember it (evil spirit) is weak compared to your prayers. Why would I deny such a help as your prayers for the priest? Mother Mary comes to Me on your behalf. How can I say no? She is the most powerful intercessor for She is My Mother too. I love Her.
Me: Will the spirit be back? What was it, and why was it attacking him?
Lord God Almighty.Gather: The spirit will be back. The spirit will be back with more spirits. It is not your place to know what spirit (what the spirit’s name is). But pray much for the priest.
Me: How can he be protected if more spirits will come?
Lord God Almighty Father: Thy Kingdom come. Thy will be done.
Me: ? What?
Lord God Almighty Father: My Will is to be done. Not that of man’s or man’s ego. The priest is My servant. He is to serve Me and Me alone.
Me: Lord, I too am your servant. Please help me to keep You first in all things so as to please You.
Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, you will make mistakes. You cannot please Me through your efforts to be good. You will always fail. That is why love is so important. You love, and I forgive, and I love you. Love is not earned or bought. It is given. It is received by man. Serve your Lord with your “Yes” everyday and then even if you make mistakes, then you can still find solace in the Sacrament of Reconciliation and in the Eucharistic Feast. I am not saying do not put effort into your day. No, put effort into every second of your day. For your day is your gift to Me. It is how you show Me your love back. Don’t you want to make it the best gift you can make? See, some saints seek Heaven, and that is good. This is a good path. But the littlest saints just want to love Me and bring Me solace back. Like a child picking flowers for the love of her mother, they are only seeking to show their love and honor of their Mother.*
That makes Me happy even when the flowers are wilted. Mother Mary will put them in a jar and new life will spring. And the bouquet will perfume the Heavens because I will the sweet scent. The flowers are Mine already, yes? Like a child picking flowers from the yard. Still, the mother is pleased. Still, I am pleased. Let your prayers be a sweet bouquet of roses to Me. Ask Mother Mary to put them in a jar of Her tears.
Me: Her tears?
Lord God Almighty Father: Her suffering, yes. Ask Her, and She will help. The evil spirits run at this.
Me: I’m confused. Run at her tears? A jar of roses?
Lord God Almighty Father: Her suffering for love of you, it is united to My suffering. And that is true love. Yes, the spirits will fly from that. For it is light, and they seek the darkness to hide. The perfume rises to Heaven, and they cannot go there. So they flee.
Me: Mary help me and help the priest, please. Make the evil spirits flee with your suffering. I love you. Amen.
Lord God Almighty Father: Rest now in Me, little one. Rest.
*I asked if this word was to be Father, not Mother.
*Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, love for your Mother is love for your Father. We are united even if some do not believe or want it to be so. I have willed it.
My thoughts: I think God is saying our work will always be little; always with mistakes in it. Like putting a child’s drawing next to a masterpiece, it alone cannot please the viewer. But that doesn’t mean the drawing isn’t loved by a parent because it comes from the child out of love. It means so much more when the child works hard on the drawing too! And Mary can present it like a mom would point out the child’s drawing to the dad and tell all about how special it is and how hard the child worked on it and how much this shows the love of the child to the parent. A child would have trouble sharing all this. Maybe she’d even put it in a pretty frame! The child isn’t trying to please the parents with his/her artistic skill or isn’t seeking favor or reward. Just like parents love a child because he/she is their child and not because the child tries hard to be good. The child is expressing love alone with the drawing. How can we, then, go wrong with love?
Please pray for priests.