✞ One who lives in the Divine Will acquires the temperament of Jesus and, with it, all its divine qualities, which will be as many melodies in Heaven. These souls are the purpose of all the things that Jesus did.
I was born Catholic and went to Mass weekly. But when COVID came and Masses were suspended, I suddenly did not have the graces of Holy Communion to keep my soul strong.
Due to my own ego, I started endorsing communist beliefs and even began to enforce Stalinist ideologies within my friendship circles in order to gain control of people and sometimes get them to worship me. I started publicly worshipping photos of communist dictators that I saved on my phone and sometimes even myself- in front of my class. At times I even pointed the middle finger at a crucifix and spat on it! I denied God's existence in front of my friends and threatened to categorize Bibles under “fairy tales”. During that time, I also made lots of blasphemous remarks publicly and vented my anger on anyone who even said the word "God".
This continued until sometime last year when I went back to church. My family was in the thrift shop when my eyes landed on a book titled 'The Fatima Prophecies' by Thomas W. Petrisko. I opened it to a page that discussed the visions of “Josyp Terelya” from Ukraine. One of his visions talked of how he saw the 'real leader of the USSR behind a yellow screen... It was Lucifer himself in the figure of Yeltsin...' Instantly, I felt the weight of my sins. All the blasphemies I spat, all the insults to God, all the idolatry. I began to cry, saying repeatedly "What have I done?" to my mother. [A Saint Paul moment?]
After this, I went to confession and made a firm resolution to never return to communist beliefs and to rebuild my spiritual life. I try my best to attend Mass as much as I can, going to confession and receiving Holy Communion.
May God bless all of you!