The Book of Heaven
—Unofficial Version—

February 22, 1923

Luisa’s fear that her state might be pretense. The higher the soul must rise, the lower must she descend.

I was very distressed by the thought that my state might be a continuous pretense.  What a bolt from the blue this is for me!  It calls all storms upon me, and puts me below all the wicked, and even the very damned.  A soul more perverted than I am has never had existence upon earth.  But what grieves me the most is being unable to get out of this state of pretense, for I would confess my sin, and at the cost of my life I would not do it any more.  Jesus, who is so good, in His infinite mercy would forgive this soul, the most wicked of all.

Then, after I had gone through one of these storms, my always lovable Jesus made Himself seen, and I said to Him:  ‘My beloved Jesus, what an ugly thought this is.  O please! do not let pretense have existence in me; rather, send me death, but do not let me offend You with the ugliest vice, which is pretense.  It terrorizes me, it crushes me, it annihilates me, it snatches me away from your sweet arms, and puts me under the feet of all, even of the damned.  My Jesus, You say that You love me very much, and then You permit this tearing of my soul away from You.  How can your Heart endure such a great pain of mine?’  And Jesus:  “My daughter, courage, do not lose heart.  One who must rise above all, must descend to the lowest bottom, below everyone.  It is said of my Mother, Queen of all, that She was the humblest of all, because She was to be superior to all; but in order to be the humblest of all, She had to descend to the lowest bottom, below everyone.  And my Celestial Mama, with the knowledge that She had of Her God and Creator, and of who She was, a creature, descended so low that, as She descended, We would raise Her, but so high, that there is no one who can equal Her.

The same for you:  in order to give the little daughter of my Will primacy in my Will, having to raise her above all, I make her descend to the lowest bottom, below everyone; and the more she descends, the more I raise her and make her take her place in the Divine Volition.  Oh! how enraptured I am, when I see one who is above all, below everyone.  I run - I fly to take you in my arms, and I expand your boundaries within my Will.  Therefore, I allow everything for your good, and also to accomplish my highest designs upon you.  However, I do not want you to waste time thinking it over; when I take you in my arms, immediately put everything aside, and follow my Will.”