✞ Signs to know whether the soul is in Grace.
I was in the midst of my usual and hard pains of the privation of Jesus. I feel I am under the lash of a Justice which punishes me with great rigor, with not even a shadow of pity. Oh, punishing Justice of God, how terrible you are! But You are even more terrible when You hide from the one who loves You! Your arrows would be sweeter to me if, while You punish me, even tearing me to pieces, my Jesus were with me… Oh, how I cry over my destiny. Even more, I would like Heaven and earth – everyone, to cry with me over the destiny of the poor exiled, who not only lives far away from her Fatherland, but is also left by her Jesus, who was her only comfort - the only support of her long exile.
Now, while my poor heart was swimming in the bitterness of its pain, my adorable Jesus made Himself seen in my interior, in act of dominating everything. It was as if He held many reins in His hands, and each rein was bound to a human heart. So, there were as many reins in His hands for as many existing creatures. And then He said to me: "My daughter, the path is long; even more, each life of a creature is a distinct path; therefore, it is appropriate to walk much, and through many paths. You will be the one who will cover all these paths, because having to enclose my Will in you, you must enclose all that It contains, and it is befitting for you to cover all paths of every creature, together with my Will. Therefore, in my Will you have yet much to do and suffer."
On hearing this, oppressed and tired as I was, I said: ‘My Jesus, this is too much; who is going to do them? I am already tired enough; and then, You leave me alone and without You I can do nothing...Ah, if I only had You always with me, then I could do them; but, alas, You leave me alone and I can do nothing.’
And Jesus added: "Yet, I am in your heart leading everything, and all these paths were covered by Me. I enclosed everything; I let not even a heartbeat or a pain of one creature escape Me. And you must know that, having to enclose my Will in you as center of life, it is necessary that my Supreme Volition find in you all the paths and all that your Jesus did, because these are inseparable from It. It is enough not to accept one single thing It contains to prevent It from forming Its center, having Its full dominion, and having Its point of origin in you, to make Itself known and to dominate others. It will have it from Itself, but not from you. See then, how necessary it is that you embrace all and cover the paths of all, loading yourself with the hardship, the pains and the acts of all, if you want the Majesty of my Will to descend in you and to follow Its course within you."
On hearing this, surprised, I said: ‘My Love, what are You saying? You know how poor I am and in what state I find myself. And then, how can I enclose all of your Will? At the most, by your Grace, I can live in It, but to enclose It is impossible. I am too little and I cannot contain an unending Will.’
And Jesus: "My daughter, it seems you do not want to understand: the One who wants to enclose this Will in you must give you the grace and the capacity to contain It. Did I perhaps not enclose my whole Being in the womb of my Celestial Mama? Did I perhaps enclose Myself in part, leaving part of Myself in Heaven? Certainly not. And by enclosing Myself in her womb, was She not the first one to take part in all the acts of her Creator and in all pains, identifying Herself with Me so as to omit nothing of what I worked? Was She not my starting point, from which I came out to give Myself to other creatures? If I did this with my inseparable Mama in order to descend toward man and fulfill my Redemption, can I not do it with another creature, giving her the grace and capacity to enclose my Will, making her share in all the acts It contains, in order to form Its Life and to come out from her, as from a second Mother, to make Me known and to fulfill the "Fiat Voluntas Tua" on earth as it is in Heaven? Do you not want, then, to be the point of origin of my Will? But – oh, how much it cost my Queen Mother to be the point of origin of my appearance upon earth! So will the starting point of my Will cost you, that It may make Its appearance in the midst of creatures…
One who must give everything, must enclose everything; one cannot give, if not what he possesses. Therefore, my daughter, do not take lightly what regards my Will and what is befitting for you to do, so that It may form Its Life in you. It is the thing which interests Me the most, and you must pay attention, in order to follow my teachings." Deo gratias!