The Book of Heaven
—Unofficial Version—

Volume 2


August 7, 1899

About our nothingness.


This morning my lovable Jesus would not come. After much waiting and waiting, finally He came; my confusion and annihilation was such that I was unable to tell Him anything. Jesus told me: "The more you annihilate yourself and come to know your nothingness, the more my Humanity, unleashing rays of light, will communicate my virtues to you."

I said to Him: ‘Lord, I am so bad and ugly as to be horrifying to myself. What must I be before You?’ And Jesus: "If you are ugly, I can make you beautiful." And in the act of saying this, He sent a light from Himself to my soul, and it seemed that He would communicate His beauty to it. Then, embracing me, He began to say: "How beautiful you are – but beautiful of my own beauty; this is why I am drawn to love you." Who can say how confused I remained, more than ever! But, may everything be for His glory.