The Book of Heaven
—Unofficial Version—

Volume 12


March 23, 1920

The soul wants hiddenness, and Jesus wants her as light.


I was saying to my sweet Jesus: ‘I would like to hide myself, to the point of disappearing from everyone, and so that everyone would forget about me, as if I no longer existed on earth. How heavy it is for me, having to deal with people! I feel all the necessity of a deep silence.’ And He, moving in my interior, told me: "You want to hide yourself, and I want you as a candelabra which must give light. This candelabra will be lit by the reflections of my eternal Light. Therefore, if you want to hide, you do not hide yourself, but you hide Me, my Light and my Word."

After this, I continued to pray and, I don’t know how, I found myself outside of myself together with Jesus. I was small, while Jesus was big; and He told me: "My daughter, stretch yourself so as to equal Me. I want your arms to reach my arms, and your mouth to reach Mine..." I didn’t know how to do that, because I was too small. And Jesus placed His hands within mine and repeated: ‘Stretch, stretch yourself.’ I tried and I felt like a spring, such that, if I wanted to stretch, I got longer; otherwise I remained small. So, I easily stretched myself, and I leaned my head upon Jesus’ shoulder, while He continued to keep His hands in mine. At the contact with His Most Holy hands, I was reminded of the wounds of Jesus, and I told Him: ‘My Love, You want me to equal You, so why don’t you give me your pains? Give them to me – don’t deny them to me!’ Jesus looked at me, and pressed me tightly to His Heart, as if He wanted to tell me many things. Then He disappeared, and I found myself inside myself.