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I was doing my usual prayers, and while I was abandoning all of myself in the arms of the Supreme Will, in It I intended to do my adorations to the Divine Majesty. And my Jesus, moving in my interior, took my poor soul in His arms, and raising it between Heaven and earth, adored with me the Supreme Being; and then He said to me: "My daughter, true and perfect adoration is in the complete accord of the union of the Will of God with the soul. The more the soul makes her will and That of her Creator one, the more complete and perfect is her adoration. And if the human will is not one with the Divine - even more, if it is far away from God – it cannot be called adoration but shadow, or colorless shade, which leaves not even a trace. And if the human will is not disposed to receive the kiss of the union of the Supreme Will, instead of adoration, it can be insult and contempt. The first act of adoration is to recognize the Will of her Creator in order to do it; if this is not there, she adores with words, but in fact she insults and offends. And if you want to know the true and perfect model of adoration, come with Me in the midst of the Three Divine Persons."
I don’t know how, but Jesus held me more tightly and raised me higher, into the midst of an unending Light. I felt annihilated, but my annihilation was replaced by a Divine Life, which unleashed from Itself many different colors of beauty, of sanctity, of light, of goodness, of peace, of love, etc.; in such a way that my nothingness was transformed by those divine colors, to the extent of no longer being recognized and of enamoring the very One who had so much embellished me. And my sweet Jesus continued: "Do you see, my daughter? The prime Act of the Divine Persons is the perfect accord of Our Will. Our Will is so unified that one cannot distinguish the Will of One from That of the Other; so much so, that even though Our Persons are distinct – We are Three – Our Will is One, and this One Will produces a continuous act of perfect adoration among the Divine Persons – One adores the Others. This accord of Will produces equality of Sanctity, of Light, of Goodness, of Beauty, of Power, of Love, and establishes in Us the true reign of order and of peace, giving Us immense joys and happinesses, and infinite beatitudes. Therefore, the accord of the human will with the Divine is the first link of connection between Creator and creature; and from it, the divine virtues descend into her, as within a channel, producing in her true adoration and perfect love for her Creator. And rising from within that same channel of connection, she receives the different shades of the divine qualities. And every time the soul rises in order to dive into this Eternal Will, she is embellished by and acquires as many more varieties of divine beauty.
This is why I say that the soul who does my Will is my amusement and my contentment. And in order to amuse Myself, I keep the brush of my Will in my hands, and as she dives into my Will, I touch her up and I amuse Myself by impressing on her, with my touch, one more shade of my Beauty, of my Love, of my Sanctity, and of all my qualities. So, for Me, being in her is like being in Heaven; I find the same Adoration of the Divine Persons, my Will, my Love. And since there is always something to give to the creature, I act now as a skillful painter, portraying my Image in her; now as a Master, teaching her the most high and sublime doctrines; now as a passionate Lover, giving and wanting Love. In sum, I use and perform all my arts to amuse Myself with her. And when my Love, offended by the creatures, cannot find a place in which to take refuge, a place in which to escape from those who follow Me to give Me death or force Me to turn back to the vault of the Heavens – I take refuge in the soul who contains my Will within herself, and there I find my Power to defend Me, my Love loving Me, my Peace to give Me rest. I find everything I want. Therefore, my Will connects everything together – Heaven and earth, and all goods – and It makes them one; and from this alone all possible imaginable goods are unleashed. So, I can say that the soul who does my Will is everything for Me, and that I am everything for her."
Then my adorable Jesus withdrew into the depth of my heart, and He disappeared. I remained comforted, yes, strengthened, but prey to the sorrow of having remained without Him, and of having said to Him not even a word about my hard state… Ah, yes, when one is with Jesus, the soul flatters herself that she will possess Him forever and she feels the need for nothing; all troubles disappear and, with Jesus, all goods enter the field. But as He withdraws, the troubles come back and the pain of His privation sharpens its edge even more, which, ripping her poor heart open, without pity, renders her pain ever new and more intense.
In the meantime, my Jesus appeared again, and told Me that He had His Heart all wounded, as by a thousand pricks; and then He said to me: "My daughter, you too made these wounds to my Heart. As you called Me, you wounded Me; as you remembered that you were deprived on Me, you repeated the wounds; and as you suffered because of my privation, you added more wounds."
On hearing this, I said: ‘My Love, if You knew how my heart bleeds because of You, and how wounded and embittered I feel it because of your privation, to the point that I cannot take it any more! So, I feel it more wounded than You do.’
And Jesus: "Let us see, then, who has more wounds – whether you or I." So Jesus visited the interior of my soul and then He made a comparison between Me and Himself, to see who had more wounds – whether I or Jesus. To my surprise, I saw that Jesus had more wounds than I did, although I had enough. And Jesus continued: "Have you seen that I am more wounded than you? However, know that there are true voids of love because of my privation. But do not fear, for I will take the commitment to filling them, since I know that you cannot do what you do when you are together with Me. So, since it is not your will to form these voids of love, your Jesus will take care of filling them. One flight I make you do in my Will will be enough to place us in accord in love; in such a way that, overflowing outside, this love will flow for the good of our brothers. Therefore, let Me do, and trust Me."
